Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional: Murakami on Running

I just finished Haruki Murakami’s memoir-ish writing/running book What I Talk About When I Talk About Running and I think it’s the clearest and most concise writing I’ve read about what it feels like to run. Picking this book up coincided with an attempt to ease back into running after a long, multi-year, pause. Somehow, during the endless Zoom meeting filled months of the pandemic, I fell off my habit of running two or three days a week. I’m not sure why. Maybe lingering knee pain. Maybe just a general malaise. I don’t know if my return to running will stick (I’m really just slow speed shuffling with alternating walk breaks–I recommend something like this app if you’re just beginning or coming back from a break). Perhaps the knee pain will return and I’ll have to take up swimming which, just like Murakami, I’m terrible at.

Murakami’s straightforward honesty got me hooked. This particular passage, his response to what he thinks about when he runs, rang true,

As I run I tell myself to think of a river. And clouds. But essentially I’m not thinking of a thing. All I do is keep on running in my own cozy, homemade void, my own nostalgic silence. And this is a pretty wonderful thing. No matter what anybody else says.

It’s funny that I’ve never thought about this question, but I realized I have the same experience as Murakami. I don’t think about much of anything while I’m running. Like him, I put on some music and just run. Sometimes a vague idea will pop in my head but, as Murakami says, “I run in order to acquire a void”. For me running lets me escape the constant chatter and overthinking I’m prone to. It clears that clutter and, in my experience, uplifts my mood for the rest of the day.

This wasn’t always the case for me. I discovered running sometime in my late 20s and hated sports and physical education in school. With a few notable exceptions, in my experience, the very worst teachers were in charge of PE. Running was often meted out as punishment, a practice that really needs to stop. Murakami says,

Whenever I see students in gym class all made to run a long distance, I feel sorry for them. Forcing people who have no desire to run, or who aren’t physically fit enough, is a kind of pointless torture. I always want to advise teachers not to force all junior and senior high school students to run the same course, but I doubt anybody’s going to listen to me. That’s what schools are like. The most important thing we ever learn at school is the fact that the most important things can’t be learned at school.

Running is a divisive subject. Some love it and some really hate it. There doesn’t seem to be many people between these two poles, though many people force themselves to run. I have no idea if non-runners will enjoy Murakami’s book but its wisdom extends far beyond the usual feel good article in a running magazine and could also be read as a book about writing.

Murarkami is in much better shape than I ever was. He can run for miles every day. I can only run, at most, every other day and I have to do considerable work at the gym to prevent injuries. And I’ve had many injuries. These injuries have taught me to, as I think of it, “look above the problem.” If you have foot pain it often involves the calve. Knee pain involves the hips. You can keep going up the body until you reach the seat of consciousness itself and therein, running can teach us life lessons, not the facile life lessons found in airport self help books, but something deeper. Here’s a few I underlined:

“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional”

“I don’t think we should judge the value of our lives by how efficient they are.”

“If I’m asked what the next most important quality is for a novelist, that’s easy too: focus—the ability to concentrate all your limited talents on whatever’s critical at the moment.”

“No matter how long you stand there examining yourself naked before a mirror, you’ll never see reflected what’s inside.”

I may be counting my chicks before they’ve hatched. I’ve only been back to running for a month and I know, all to well, how easy it is to push too hard and end up with an injury that can take a very long time to recover from and, at this point, might end my running for good. Like Murakami I have to accept the inevitability that my running days will draw to a close someday. But until that time I hope to enjoy the great clearing of the mind that running provides.

I’ve Turned Into a 3D Printing Nerd

I never thought I’d want or need a 3D printer but, somewhat impulsively, I picked one up on a buy nothing group I belong to. It’s a Creality Ender 3 V2, a budget printer that’s been around for many years. You can certainly get a much better printer, but this thing works perfectly for what I use it for: boring projects around the woodshop. Here’s some of those dull, but useful, projects:

An adapter to connect a belt sander to a Festool vacuum hose.

Knobs for the massive 1950s era scroll saw I found on the street.

A template for that troubled chair project I’m still working on.

Sharpening guides.

A custom router table plate.

And, while not boring, a project I wish didn’t have to happen: whistles to hand out to neighbors to warn about ICE raids.

The humor in this post hints at the sometimes difficult to justify niche that 3D printing occupies. Not everyone needs one but I have to admit the thing is kind of fun and can have useful applications. I’ve seen some really nice whistles designed by folks who know their way around the design programs much better than I do and also know the nuances of the printer’s many settings.

Most of the objects I’ve printed were designed by other people and downloaded from Thingiverse. A few of them I designed in the free version of Autodesk Fusion, which has a steep learning curve. I use Bambu Studio to turn the files into something the printer can understand. I was also guided by a Fine Woodworking 3D printing class I took online.

Like most inexpensive tools, you get what you pay for. The Creality Ender took a lot of tinkering to get going and I think I’d look for a better printer if I were buying one new. But don’t say no to a free one.

Chair Troubles

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted here. All is well but I’ve been busy with a few projects that I’ve been meaning to blog about. I’m also gestating a zine as a venue for my more outré thoughtstylings. More on that in another post.

My main DIY task for the past few months has been the unexpectedly fraught process of choosing and making a set of dining room chairs. Chairs are one of the more difficult woodworking projects. The main challenge comes in the design phase, in determining details such as: How much the back should tilt? How high should the seat be? How much should the seat slope? How wide should the chair be? How much of a curve on the back? The standards for these measurements come in a range that you have to refine. These details then enter into a challenging comfort vs. aesthetics dialectic. Even though I’m making a reproduction I still have to consider and modify all of these details since I’m working from photographs, not physical measurements of antiques.


Just choosing a chair was an excruciating process. After drawing up plans for potential chairs in Sketchup, I made full size models out of scrap wood. My first scrap wood model was a three legged Art Nouveau throne that you can see in San Francisco’s de Young museum. I quickly learned why the workers at the Frank Lloyd Wright designed Johnson Wax Company headquarters complained about his attempt at a three legged chair. As the V&A Museum notes, there was a reason behind Wright’s three legged madness,

The chair has only three legs and was designed to promote good posture in the sitter. If the sitter adopted any other position rather than one with two feet on the ground with weight evenly distributed, the chair would become unstable.

The model I built definitely had this posture-policing quality. Sit in it like a slob and you’ll topple over. Lean back and the chair will break. The chair’s curves and elegant inlay work asked you to up your drip game. I imagined something like this:


Jean Delville, Portrait of the Grand Master of the Rosicrucians in Choir Dress, Joséphin Péladan (Portrait du Grand Maître de la Rose+Croix en habit de chœur, Joséphin Péladan), 1895.
I also could hear the music you’d listen to while sitting in this chair. Good news is that you could regularly shop at the Silver Lake Trader Joe’s in this outfit and nobody would notice. Bad news is that I don’t have an Art Nouveau throne room and I ain’t an Art Nouveau king so it was back to the drawing board.


Alas, I built two more full scale models of different chairs only to discover that they were way too big for our modest bungalow.

Final chair on left, model on right.

At last I found a much more modest chair with a cottagecore vibe that I was pretty sure would work, an obscure Gustav Stickley design from 1902. I built a full scale model and went through a long series of adjustments (I hinged the back so that I could get the optimal angle for comfort). I made adjustments to the plan in Sketchup and commenced building the final chair (shown at the top of this post) with some quatersawn white oak that I had laying around.


Someone gave me a 3D printer and I used it to generate router templates for the curves in the back slats and to make gauges for the compound angles of the side rails. I never thought I’d ever use a 3D printer but it’s actually proved useful and I’ll blog about it in another post.

Mistakes happened as they always do. I cut the front legs too short but figured out a way to add on some wood to hide the mistake. I pre-finshed the wood before assembly but in the process of gluing it together somehow managed to not apply enough glue to the side rails.

Once I finally got the chair assembled I struggled over stain color. Ironically, I’m in a philosophy class this month where the subject of color came up, as it also did in a previous philosophy class I took last year. I’ll spare you the details but let’s just say that Plato, Henri Bergson and Gilles Deleuze all struggled over what the f*** color is. If you really think about color you’ll come to see that the paint sample chips at the paint store lie to us with their certainty and granular specificity. Color perception in a piece of furniture can shift depending on the time of day, the initial color of the wood you’re working with and your mood. I was happy with the color but Kelly was skeptical and she’s the one with the art degree so I’ve learned to respect her expertise.


Then came the final rush chair seat weaving step. I’ve done this once before but this new chair was more challenging than that previous one and this time it the weaving process really didn’t go well. I probably had five or six false starts, getting about a quarter of the way in only to see the strands drift off course and then having to completely unweave and reweave. On one of the first weaving attempts I noticed a lack of glue in the side rails and I had to stop, reglue and reclamp.

I finally finished weaving the seat, was not happy with the results, and the rails came loose again. I think the chair is too low, the slope front to back too dramatic and the color wrong. I’m definitely going to have to cut apart my mediocre weaving job, bang the chair apart and hope I can fix the bad glue joints. I’ll probably have to sand it down to bare wood again and restain. It might look okay in the picture but you’ll have to believe me when I say it’s getting as close to firewood as any project I’ve ever done. I’m considering making a second one with the lessons I’ve learned and later attempting to fix this wonky first attempt.

In woodworking, after an initial period of enthusiasm about beginning a new project, there’s always a phase of imposter syndrome. That’s a good thing because you have to stay humble when working with natural materials and manage both expectations about how long it takes to build something as well as realism about your skill levels. Sometimes things go smoothly, but most of the time they don’t. I’ve come to believe that in woodworking you never reach “mastery” you only get slightly better at recovering from mistakes. The paradox is that you make more mistakes because you’re always trying to strive for something slightly out of the reach of your skills. In short, it’s always just plain hard.

So Many Cats

I helped a friend take two cats she’s currently fostering to Santé D’Or to get their shots and I got to hang out with all the foster babies for a few minutes. The spicy cats have to wear a little tie so that people know to keep an eye on them. I watched this cute little jerk running around and picking fights with all the other cats. He took a break to sit on the kibble barrel.